Story Behind the Still: How it feels to be gay in Russia
- Text by Jack Richardson
- Photography by Mads Nissen / Panos Pictures
Mads Nissen is a 36-year-old photographer from Denmark, where he studied photojournalism at the Danish School of Journalism in Copenhagen.
His work has documented issues from the food crisis in Niger to life in the Amazon rainforest, appearing in the likes of of Newsweek and Time, while earning several awards and distinctions along the way (including World Press Photo of the Year in 2014).
“I was in Saint Petersburg in the summer of 2013, not long after the Duma [Russia’s assembly] implemented the so-called ‘Anti-Gay Law’. I wanted to take a look at what was happening relating to that, so I went to a Gay Pride march where something happened that changed everything for me.
“I was standing next to a young man named Pavel when, out of the blue, a homophobe comes up and screamed in his face, asking if he’s a faggot. Pavel answered very calmly that yes, he is a homosexual, before the homophobe punches him square in the face.
“I got so upset that I felt I needed to do something. I felt it was a violation not only of Pavel’s rights but also of LGBT rights and of basic human rights. I even felt it was a violation of my human rights. You know, that’s the strongest motivation you can have in your work: when you feel so personally engaged and just plain fuckin’ angry.
“I decided to pick up my camera and really do an in-depth story on homophobia in Russia. That’s how the project started and I just kept going back. I was trying to understand what how it feels to be gay in Russia right now.
“A lot of the time when I see [instances of] human rights abuse, I don’t really feel it – I read the report or notice the headline… but it doesn’t really become personal to me. What I wanted to do with this work was just that: make it personal, intimate.
“People think there aren’t gay clubs in Russia, but there are. The law doesn’t make it illegal to be gay, but what you cannot do is make ‘gay propaganda’, whatever that is, with children present. So these nightclubs exist, but of course it can be very dangerous to go there, especially when leaving the nightclub, because there might be homophobes waiting outside to catch you.
“Ruslan [the man in the picture] was married to a woman and, after so many years, suddenly jumped out of the closet. He can be who he really wants to be. I’m not gay, but I think my job is to at least try to understand how it must be to deny your own sexuality for such a long time before you can finally recognise yourself.
“I think there’s a tremendous power and strength that takes. I imagine that if you’ve been denied something your whole life, when you come out you want to try everything. You want to really explore it, you know? I think that’s what he’s doing with this suit that he’s wearing.
“Obviously [taking a picture like this] is all about trust. The nightclub will often deny photographers entry, with good reason. In this nightclub, some people might have spoken a bit of English, but not very well, so I took a friend of mine – a former student – along.
“The [bouncers] said, ‘You are not allowed. You’re Russian. You’re not allowed to take pictures.’ So only I was allowed to take pictures but he could help with translating and so on.
“Obviously I like the lights and I like the scenery in the shot, but to me it’s a symbol. You can only oppress something for so long before it bursts.”
Find out more about Mads Nissen’s work at Panos Pictures.
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