Unpacking the privilege of life as a white South African
- Text by Sydelle Willow Smith, Olivia Walton
- Photography by Sydelle Willow Smith
Being a white South African is a perplexing identity to occupy. I was born in 1987 and grew up just as apartheid came to an end. Ever since starting primary school, I have been told that I am a child of the “rainbow nation”, that the advent of democracy means that racial differences would cease to exist.
Yet it’s clear that our relationships in this country remain largely mediated – affected, limited, constrained, corroded, delineated – by race. And there’s certainly no ignoring that the history of imperialism, colonialism and white supremacy on this soil is one of violence and economic exploitation.
A group of overlanders enjoying the pool in the midday sun of the Kalahari Desert.
To white South Africans, that paradox is so familiar that it is often not visible as a paradox at all. To be white, Olivia and I believe, means coming to understand the intimacies of class and race that continue to define South Africa’s hopes.
Rebecca, a domestic worker, cleans a penthouse apartment in Johannesburg.
This sense of needing to unpack privilege beyond a space of guilt came to the forefront when my nanny “Ya-Ya” passed away. I called her Ya-Ya because I couldn’t say her English name (Florence) when I was little and she would not let me call her by her isiXhosa name.
From my very first memories, she was there: tickling, teasing, laughing, giving me a hiding or two whenever they were rightly due. She’d feed me samp and beans for lunch, giving me advice about humility, puberty, boys, family and life itself.
A day at the horse races, Kenilworth, Cape Town.
She always wanted to know about my “friend”, who has since become my life partner, and gave us constant guidance when it came to relationships.
Too frail to attend our wedding, it meant so much when she called in and gave her speech over the PA system.
Apartheid antique memorabilia for sale, Hermanus.
For the past four years, I have been working on Un/Settled intermittently. I interview people and take their portraits and, based on sentiments conveyed in the interviews, document environmental and urban spaces as well. Land for grabs, Cape St Francis.
The work showcases participants young and old, from diverse walks of life and heritage. It includes symbolic images of landscapes reflecting ideas of ownership and dominion over land, history and place – all linked to the origins of settler colonialism and the continued sense of entitlement that many white South Africans carry within them.
Un/Settled comes from a place of vulnerability, but also of curiosity. It is a record of a moment in our collective history worth recording, a moment that can only be disrupted through honest engagement.
“It was hugely presumptuous of Livingstone and Stanley and King Leopold to use the idea of a ‘primitive people’ that needed to be saved from themselves… We are still suffering from that idea of it being a ‘dark continent’.” – Kingsley Holgate, an explorer who models his expeditions on David Livingstone’s.
The aim is to question not just how one photographs, writes and documents its undercurrents, but to find out how one confronts them. What ties us together? What pulls us apart? And perhaps most importantly, how do I live in this place?
The end of apartheid was signalled by a great gesture of forgiveness and hope, one that must have seemed to transcend the war still being fought at the time: the decades of violent oppression, the cities, families, farms and people torn to shreds – all in the name of a clapped-out, narrow-minded nationalism.
A young holidaymaker at Jeffrey’s Bay Caravan Park.
This was not absolution. In the last few years, student and workers’ protests have made this narrative – already standing on shaky ground – impossible to accept.
The sins of the father will be passed on to the second and third generation. I used to think that was a curse you are putting on. But it’s just stating a fact.” – Mary Weir, who emigrated to South Africa from Scotland in the 1960s.
Movements like #RhodesMustFall and #FeesMustFall have demanded answers of South African institutions, from universities to the office of the president, triggering debates about race and gender that had not happened on such a scale until now.
Finally, it seems, white people are being made to consider what it means to be white in this place. But navigating this new social landscape, where old scars run deep, requires deeper conversations. It requires learning to listen with humility.
This article appears in Huck 67 – The Documentary Photography Special VI. Buy it in the Huck Shop or subscribe now to never miss another issue.
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